I’m searching for my way.. between the books.. above the wet grass… under the infinite sky..
I’m not confused anymore.. I’m certain that I have a feeling.. a view and a beleive that I have to follow my journey searching for my way.. I may reach it.. I may not.. I just love to think about it… A way lead me to discover another way.. I keep searching and I don’t know how all of this will come to an end.. I’m so curious and impatient to see the next chapter. This is my journey.. trying to discover this would.. my inside world..my life..
The thing is that, I have to taketa break sometimes to relax. I’m not allowing myself to take any.. I’m afraid I can’t resist..
My mind still thinking even when I try to not lesten.. It keeps thinking and talking.. A lot of noise..
I ‘m not bothered. I just want be stop for a moment to relax and to look back.. to see how long was the way and how far I’m still have to go…
Life Style
There is nothing meaningful for me more than making a difference in the world at this point of my life where I’m actually still looking for the big goal or the main role of my existence that I’m here for it. Okey, sounds good.. but for real how can I make my life goal happening, the thing making my existance valuable. Well easy talk.. I know but I beleive that it is easy to make it. I’m not pretending to make it easy as really it is.
The big thing that is making me angry all the time is to see the unjustice, the ignorance and see things going to the wrong way… I’m really not able to change all of that in the world or hoping to do so but I’m taking my part of responsability. My part is to raise my voice and my actions and change myself first as at some level I’m part of the system.
I ‘m part of the silence, the laziness, the procastination, the fear… I’m now in position to do my part of the job.. I’m not more concious than before but there is one difference now is that I’m tired of being passive and hopless at some point, quite.. and by not acting giving affirmation that I’m okey and agreed with the current status.
Theall time excuse I have is being busy doing staff. I know very well that this is not true, this is only for releasing stress of thinking about it for a while.. As a first step I decide to take responsability of controlling my time this year.
I define my resolutions for 2018 and I’m engaging my self to accomplish it by 31/12/2018. Here is the list:
– Take care of my health by following a healthy diet and doing a sport activity
– Entering a paint course as this is my childhood passion I love to ge back to it.
– Be more Active in society by doing volunteer work
– Raise my voice up by talking, writing etc…
– Find for myself a job that I love so I can feel every minute I’m spending is going to the right place
– Learn more languages
I was not too specific in term of description but I want give myself a bit of freedom unless the main goal is reached. I leave you here now so I can go back to create the world I dreaming about.
Say with me: I’m excited about today. I’m prepared. I’m expecting opportunity and miracle for me. I’m filled with gratitude and happiness. I’m feeling strong today. I have all I need to make this a great day. I’m thankful for the opportunity to chase my dreams. I’m in charge of my mind. I’m strong in my body ans spirit. Thankful for being alive being me. Amazing opportunities are waiting for me. I choose to love my life <3
I can feel good without wearing makeup :p
It is raining today and a bit cold, I feel bored I hope my orange tea can warm me up. I’ m trying theses days to relax and to explore more my innerself. It happens a lot that i get stuck in doing a lot of things and forgetting to listen to me. I feel it is time now to get back to me and commit to myself and love it much more than I do now. I’m scheduling a daily self talk .. why not? It is a kind of meditation, I don’t know what is the stucture of the talk but I will keep it free so I can explore as much as I can. I think I will be using the mind mapping method that worked for me in multiple cases. I may talk about it in details in future posts or videos. The weather is still cold, cold enough to let my tea be the best thing I can drink and enjoy now 🙂