There was a bunch of freeze moments I had in the previous period of my life. It was really so hard for me to express it. I tried just to go away from it by doing nothing at all. I was simply pushing myself so hard until I burned out. This time is different than previous experience, I feel I could keep going, but really it is not the case. It is like I’m dreaming that I did something and get up but still feeling it as it was real. I even could not believe it was a dream. That is what happened to me. I felt I was not needing any help, I’m just okay I could move further, but no, it was just that little moment of weakness that let me down.
So grateful even for this, for a very simple thing. The way I’m treating my self now is much better. It is even better than before. I’m learning new things about my self. I’m getting closer to who I’m. It is more real when I find my self and me talking and making it the ultimate priority. How beautiful to love yourself. There is nothing that would make someone stronger than loving himself.
I’m paying more attention to me., to the details that matters for me, to the little thing that could shift my mood… to the minor things that are able to please me.. I’m not like just feeling good now, I’m feeling connected to my self…
I don’t give a f** to anything that would bother me… even though everyone on earth are against me… I don’t f** care ..
I’m full of myself .. and I promise I will never let me down
Burning out is AGAINST our nature. Getting back to NATURE is getting back to self.
I’m getting back to my real nature I’m in the vortex back again!
